Thursday, August 21, 2008

Emotional detachment . . .

Today I will receive the pelvic MRI images that should provide a clue as to whether I’m dealing with more than one tumor.

Despite my aggressive involvement in all issues surrounding my medical care, for the most part I remain oddly detached from an emotional standpoint. That may be because I’ve been through this before. Maybe it’s something else. But I think that at least a portion of that detachment stems from my understanding of the following:

“Hope and fear cannot alter the seasons.” (Chögyam Trungpa)

Nevertheless, this process is beginning to wear me down a little bit . . .

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Your emotional detachment to this point is probably an advantage- you are able to make clear and rational decisions based on the facts as they come to light (some are still in the dark). I am encouraged and strengthened by your "leaving no stone unturned". You are intelligent, stubborn, and persistent, and I know you will take this head-on...your little sister loves you!